Hello lovelies-
So, we have moved and I can’t get all of my followers to follow me to the new site. Come on over! The water’s fine: www.turkeybasterandabottleofwine.com.
-Betsy
Hello lovelies-
So, we have moved and I can’t get all of my followers to follow me to the new site. Come on over! The water’s fine: www.turkeybasterandabottleofwine.com.
-Betsy
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Thanks for reading!
-Betsy
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Hello friends! Please join me at our new site: www.turkeybasterandabottleofwine.com.
Follow TBBW at our new address and stay up to date with new blog posts and exciting things to come. Right now, you can find a bookstore full of LGBT books for kids and adults just in time for Christmas!
Thanks a ton!
-Betsy
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Agua y Amor
When Ita asked for water the first time, she said “agua”, which is Spanish for “water”. She loves to eat rice and beans, and the first time she danced, it was to a song by Puerto Rican salsero, Marc Anthony (Jennifer Lopez’s ex-husband). She loves in Spanish, too. She has learned to squeeze her moms with eyes shut tight, saying “tanto!” which means “so much”. She has my cousin’s sense of humor, my sister’s movements, my grandmother’s pensiveness, my mom’s watchful eye, and my sense of joy.
Biologically, she is not ours.
My wife (her birth mother) and her donor are White. I had to adopt her and jump through scary legal hoops to establish what everyone knew—this is my baby. My baby. Born White and culturally Puerto Rican, she’s a little White girl with the grit in her gut and glint in her eye of a Latina. Some folks can’t see our connection. This summer one man asked, “So are you her nanny?” Other folks, the folks who know that love is thicker than blood, know biology isn’t the only connection love creates. My aunt looked at Ita, looked at us and noted “but neither of you have blue eyes.” The staff at my doctor’s office whispered me over and said “Jen! She looks just like you!” I reminded them that this was a biological impossibility.
A biological impossibility.
C and I plan on taking Ita to Puerto Rico someday. We tell her all about the food she’ll eat, the sounds she’ll hear, and the agua she’ll swim in. We tell her about the friendly Puerto Ricans, her people, the ones she’ll meet and we know she’ll love the island. We know this because she is as warm as the Puerto Rican sun, and when her toes touch the sand, she will be home.
-Jen
Posted in Being Non-gestational, Uncategorized
Tagged gay parenting, lesbian parenting, lgbt parenting, queer parenting
S has this thing she does with M. She asks him how long she can keep him and he typically says, “26.” He decided that when he is 26, he will move to his own house on “the big road”. His friends (A and M, brother and sister) will move in with him and he will have us over for breakfast. A couple of weeks ago, we got an answer other than ’26’. When S asked how long she can keep him, “‘Til you are 26?” she asked.
“No,” he said.
“Why not?”
“Because I am going to die soon.”
(Insert heart hitting the floor here.)
This has stayed with me since, coming from behind and slapping the back of my head every now and then. When I remember his words, my chest tightens and I lose my breath, praying that he is just working through things in his head and that he doesn’t actually know something we don’t.
2013 has been a shitty year. M has learned a lot this year. Maybe too much. I try to chalk his statement up to that. We lost a pregnancy he was invested in. My mom’s best friend died and he came with me to her memorial service. He doesn’t know it, but my dad had a minor stroke today.
He has seen a lot this year. I wonder if our decision to be completely honest with him has exposed him to too much, too soon. I don’t know what the alternative is. I can’t lie to him, but I want to protect him. Where is the middle ground? I just don’t know.
What I do know is that life is short and shit happens. No matter how much I try to protect him or prepare for the ‘what ifs’, I just can’t shelter him from all hurt. No matter how much I want to. And that sucks. I guess that is all part of the letting go that happens the moment a child is born. From that first moment we let someone else hold him to my last breath, I have been and will be giving him the world and to the world.
I think that is my life’s work. The letting go and the moving on. Maybe that is everyone’s life work. Maybe it is holding on too tight that holds us all back, our children included. Just maybe.
-Betsy
Posted in General Parenting, Uncategorized
Tagged gay parenting, lesbian parenting, lgbt parenting, queer parenting
Thursday was our first foray into trick-or-treating. My boy dressed as a payphone (yes, a payphone) and was excited for days beforehand. We went early to the area of town where half of everyone goes to collect candy from strangers. They do it up right. Street closed off. Hot chocolate for the parents. Folks on their front porches with giant smiles.
My boy was confused by the costumes. He kept saying, “Mama. I don’t know who all these scary people are.” He would ask why that five-year old had red stuff (fake blood) all over his face or why that boy was wearing a gas mask. He was more than eager to collect candy (he had never had it before), but was a little confused and scared by the whole of the event.
It took him two hours to fall asleep that night. He kept telling me he was scared. He woke up a bazillion times that night, crying out like never before. I learned, that night, that he isn’t ready for big kids halloween. Which is fine by me, actually.
The unexpected thing to come out of the event is his new obsession with candy. We threw out half of the paltry amount he collected, leaving him with about fifteen pieces. He was told he could have one piece a day after a good meal. He put all his candy in a silver bowl (his “sweeties” bowl) and has been carrying it from room to room for almost a week. He will pour the contents out, sniff each one and then put it back in the bowl. He will eat one piece and then make a plan for the next day, “Can I have the bubblegum lollipop tomorrow?” Sometimes, he will thrust the bowl under my nose and tell me to smell it. At the end of the day, he will place his sweeties bowl next to his bed, just in front of his fish, and tell it goodnight.
So, I really learned two things from last Thursday. People are scary (although, I kind of knew that already) and candy is addictive (I guess I kind of already knew that, too).
He is asking for another halloween, not sure if he can wait until next year. Maybe next year we will have a party and hand out apples and dental floss. Ask everyone to come dressed as a butterfly or flower. Put off the candy and scary people for a while, try to keep by boy little as long as possible.
-Betsy
Posted in General Parenting, Uncategorized
Tagged gay parenting, lesbian parenting, lgbt parenting, queer parenting